Still Busy

I want to thankyou all for your advice. I pretty much agree with you guys, he isn't good for my health. But then I feel addicted sometimes because he can just be amazing sometimes. But I will be trying to see him less and less and move on and start dating and whatnot.

So I have been really busy and I feel guilty for not commenting on many blogs. It gets overwhelming sometimes. I am still unpacking and omg so some coworkers and friends came back to school and I swear so many are pro ana! They look pretty much anorexic and I was jealous =( I want to lose weight so bad now and this week of moving and training and friends will not be helping with that. To make myself feel better I just keep reminding myself that once school starts and the gym opens it will be easier to eat less and workout more.

I am getting a little paranoid. One friend commented on how little I ate and it made me nervous when responding. Luckily(even though I am a little envious) an already skinny friend of mine got skinnier this summer and my other friend who would have normally commented on me couldn't stop talking about how skinny she had gotten. She did get skinnier but I personally think she looks better and isn't ana or mia or anything. She is highly athletic. Any I am rambling. I will be reading some blogs tonight then will be busy for the next few days. Much love to you all <3


8 comments:

kemper said...

I keep telling myself that when I get back to school I'll be able to eat as little as I want and exercise as much as I want, but my classes don't start for another month...
How do you manage??

Fleur said...

I get so jealous when i see peopl from before the vacation and they've lost heaps of weight, makes me wonder how they do it. you'll get to gym soon :) And don't worry bout not commenting.. i understand that you have a life :)

Hanz said...

I always think I must look like a stalker, cos when I see really skinny peopple, or people who have got much thinner I always end up staring at them cos I'm just so envious of them!
People noticing what I eat or if I'm thinner makes me feel guilty and usually means I sabotage myself for them so that sets me back. Easier not to see people. xx

All about Lily said...

Oh...I don't like to go back to school and see how people have change over the summer and you don't! But in your case you should be proud of showing your new body! You worked hard for it.
I hate people commenting on your weight or diet, except if it is just a compliment!

Stay strong.

Ana's Girl said...

Boys are addictive. I wonder why that is? I'm sure you'll do just fine without him; you'll be better off.

Oh goodness, i saw a girl from my school yesterday... I swear she's a size 00 and she has a gap between her thighs and the tiniest arms and flattest tummy. She's everything i envy now. And there i stood, feeling like a fat tub of lard. At least it's thinspiring.

Stay strong, sweetie. I know you'll get around to the blogs and commenting and such when you're not so busy. It's ok.

Yum said...

I'm paranoid too. I'm always wondering if the skinny girls I see are pro ana, or if any girls I know IRL are in the proana blogosphere....

xthinforever said...

Oh honey! Don't keep putting it off telling yourself that it will be easier then and blah blah.. Practice makes perfect! Get a good start on it now (which you clearly have) and keep it up! <3

lizzy said...

its validating when people notice but also really f'n awkward too! and i sorta love seeing people lose alot, even if i am jealous, i know im not alone!! yea and dont worry bout commenting etc, im not going anywhere and i know what its like to be busy

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