I just quickly wanted to reply to Ana's Girl while at the same time ramble =)
As much as I should go to a counselor (my mom even suggested it...because I suffered from depression years ago. She doesn't suspect an ED I dont think) I'm just not ready to. Besides I have dived into my feelings many times and know the root of my problems. I did have a bad childhood and horrible family relationships were I was betrayed and lied to as a child, even abandoned. So I have trust and abandonment issues. Its rather simple, and my feelings toward people, myself, and even my ED is just a result of my childhood. I hate how easily I can decipher my faults and their causes, especially when I'm not sure I can solve them or even if I want to. I'm too analytical and it doesn't help that I see my problems as mudane anyway. I suppose if my inner issues ever did get serious enough I would go to a counselor. As of now I am still able to recognize my level of sanity. I think so anyway lol
Another Update
Also, my depressing week is ending guys, so sorry you had to deal with my ranting and whining. Thats just want happens when I keep all of my feelings bottled up over a period of time. I am slowly getting over my jealousy and I feel a lot less miserable now =)
As much as I should go to a counselor (my mom even suggested it...because I suffered from depression years ago. She doesn't suspect an ED I dont think) I'm just not ready to. Besides I have dived into my feelings many times and know the root of my problems. I did have a bad childhood and horrible family relationships were I was betrayed and lied to as a child, even abandoned. So I have trust and abandonment issues. Its rather simple, and my feelings toward people, myself, and even my ED is just a result of my childhood. I hate how easily I can decipher my faults and their causes, especially when I'm not sure I can solve them or even if I want to. I'm too analytical and it doesn't help that I see my problems as mudane anyway. I suppose if my inner issues ever did get serious enough I would go to a counselor. As of now I am still able to recognize my level of sanity. I think so anyway lol
Another Update
Also, my depressing week is ending guys, so sorry you had to deal with my ranting and whining. Thats just want happens when I keep all of my feelings bottled up over a period of time. I am slowly getting over my jealousy and I feel a lot less miserable now =)
2 comments:
I'm so glad you're feeling less miserable. :) I look to you for inspiration, you know, as creepy as that may sound. ;) 5'7 and 120...ah, I can't wait to get there. I've had a rough time as of late; I'm still working on trying to figure out why Mia's been pushing Ana around in my head so fervently...I'd much rather have the latter than the former at this point, but I suppose beggars can't be choosin', right? ;)
Thanks for posting, and stay strong, stay lovely.
<3
Yay! Glad the depressing week is ending :D
This is a little random, but I just wanted to say how I've always thought you were so strong Nic. You see things so clearly and have such a great understanding of yourself.
Stay strong <3
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