Feeling Funny

So I am having a dilemma. At the beginning of the day I was sticking strict to my semi fast. But I was still sore from working out yesterday and was heading to work out again. At this time I had only had 600 calories all day. And I started feeling bad because I was physically tired and felt a little sick from lack of food. I felt like I was punishing my body for no reason. I felt like I was working out too much to be eating so little. But at the same time I want to be just a little thinner. I am thinner now with nice lean muscle and I feel great. But I don't want to stop and lose my progress.

So anyway afterwards I hung out with friends and let loose and ate two slices of pizza, some soda and ice cream. And then I felt bad for stuffing my face...I ate a normal amount of calories but I hate how its not 1000 or under. I am tempted to go work out right now (its kinda late) but my body is so sore. I feel like I have been working out a lot but it never seems enough. And I think I did ok...not as good as I wanted. And tomorrow is friday which I have designated my cheat day meaning absolutely no counting or not eating. I get to eat whatever I want and not feel guilty or bad about it. I feel that I will be watching what I eat and be away from friends this weekend so today and tomorrow won't matter. But I am still having mixed feelings about today...at times I feel like I am not eating enough and that my body is in unnecessary pain, but then at other times I wish I hadn't just eaten that pizza. What does reassure me however is when I look into the mirror...I like what I see.

Food today:

apple 80
three orange slices 30
egg white omelet spinach cheese 125
pear slices -40
water
granola bar -110
slice of bread with tuna 150
cookie dough - 140

After workout and feeling bad about not eating

two slices of pizza - 670
icecream - no clue
soda - 120


Total: 1465 not including icecream...so maybe real total is around 1700-1800
I did workout today maybe 100-200 calories. I like to round low.


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So I am proud to say I stuck to my plan ^^. Food I had today:

Breakfast - estimated 250 (more because I am iffy on the fruit and omelet)
egg white omelet spinach and cheese - 125
three slices of an orange - 25
water - 0
a piece of honey dew and some pear slices 50

lunch - 250 calories
green tea - 0
granola bar - 110
apple - 70
piece of chocolate - 70

Dinner - NONE!

Total - 500
Workout had to be at least 200

Managed to skip dinner and workout hardcore. When I say hardcore I mean my body is sore and I hope I can walk tomorrow lol. I am gaining lean muscle definition it feels awesome and today at soccer I was complimented on my speed. I love sprinting =) I almost had a problem today concerning dinner that I managed to avoid, kind of scared me though. A friend asked me to go to the cafeteria and I declined and said I was going out to eat...so she said she would come to! Talk about awkward. Luckily she was starving and wanted to eat right away. I said I wasn't hungry right at that moment and would eat later. I always feel a friend is going to call me out or something. But besides that today was awesome. I will try and do it again tomorrow.

I need to apologize as well. Because while I love comments I haven't been commenting on blogs. This is due to me just being busy, I barely find time to post a blog. And no I don't have some super life lol I just work a lot, work out, class and friends. So sorry if I am not commenting I really regret that. I do love to talk to people so if any of you seriously need to talk or need advice or support etc etc feel free to email me lovelycasualty@yahoo.com

Take care and good luck ^^


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Weighing Dilemna

So I am currently doing what you are not supposed to be doing; weighing myself on two different scales which keeps messing with my mind. First scale would be my roommate's which is a pretty high-tech expensive scale. Second scale would be the gym's scale which would include my sweating hair and gym shoes since it would look awkward taking my shoes off in front of people lol. Her scale (in the morning on an empty stomach) normally says 120. The gym scale (at night after tons of water and clothes and shoes) says 124 which I conclude to really be 122...but there is still a difference! And problem is neither says 119 =(

I have concluded that I am not hitting 119 (according to roommate's scale) because I keep eating dinner with all my friends. I only eat that one meal a day but it sucks because its social eating which always makes you eat more and in our dining hall which is basically a buffet. I haven't been able or even motivated to fast =(. So I devised a plan for tomorrow

Breakfast:
white egg omelet with spinach and cheese
banana

Lunch
Green tea with a granola bar

Dinner
Banana

Lol not sure if I can just do a banana for dinner. I am planning on going to practice with this club soccer team I joined for a couple of hours and then going to the gym. I desperately want the banana to hold me off but we will see. Wish me luck ^^ Your support means the world


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So I did it. I reached 120 again. I am ecstatic and feel great. As of now, I haven't eaten anything today and weighed myself this morning on an empty stomach. The plan is to eat a small to medium size dinner tonight, workout for an hour then head to bed on an empty stomach. I think I can reach 119 either tomorrow or the day after. Wow I am so going to reach 117 then go on a shopping spree! I have the cash all saved up lol =D

I honestly feel coming back to my blog really motivated me. You guys are just amazing. Ok now for gossip:

A really close friend of mine, we've been friends since highschool, used to be super skinnier than me, but she is super lazy. So we went to college and she gained a ton of weight, probably 10 pounds and now none of her clothes fit which sucks because they are all designer lol. She has no motivation to do anything, she would fail if tried to be proana. And I've lost weight but instead of her complimenting me, the jealousy is coming out (which I don't mind hehe). But its getting annoying because she is projecting her insecurities on me. For example with weight gain comes bigger boobs. We used to have the same size (I'm a 32 A lol which I love!!) but she has totally gotten bigger. So you know what she does? She asks me, like puts me on the spot if I wear a tight shirt and says, "Did your boobs get bigger!?" and to any normal person that wouldn't be annoying but she KNOWS I love my boobs and would hate if they got bigger. And she has done this multiple times and I can only say no and look awkward. Next time she asks I am totally going to say, "No but it looks like yours has."

I know it sounds extremely petty but its irritating when a friend projects things on you. And I say friend because she honestly is a good friend...we just like to compete with one another xD. She's worked out with me once and said she would always work out with me but knowing her she will get lazy and quit which actually sucks because she is upset she is gaining weight. But this is how I feel about it, if you are upset your clothes do not fit and that you are gaining a gut and bigger boobs do something about it instead of being lazy and inactive. Ok so I am done with my gossip for now lol, enjoy some thinspo



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Reached 120 then failed.

So I have a crazy amount to update. I need to explain why I have been gone, what have I been up to, and my weight goals. First off I reached my first goal weight of 120 and I felt amazing. Bad news is I binged for TWO days and lost my goal weight and felt too bad to post on my blog =(. I feel better now but ugh it sucks. I am probably 122 right now. So I have been very busy working and getting ready for school. Once school starts binging will be harder. I am just constantly surrounded by friends and all we do is eat. Its irritating even though it seems half of my friends are developing ED's lol. I know I shouldn't find that comical but I do. Its just so ironic.

So I hit 120 then binged but then worked out like crazy. One day I did two trips to the gym and according to the machines burned a total of 600 calories. The real number was probably 400-500 but it felt great. I pretty much binged today because of peer pressure (I know it sucks) but I am so sick of it, I can't take it anymore. I hate that I have been avoiding my blog, makes me feel even more guilty. I really need to make it up to you guys. I'm hoping once I weigh below 120 I will treat you guys to pics of me.

I really missed you and yes I will not avoid my blog again, it doesn't help lol. Everyday I would just think oh goodness I should put this on my blog tonight. So now that the gym is open I am super happy, I've been like 4 times this week already. I already have my gym schedule set out as well so that makes me feel a little better. I will be up all night reading blogs so much love to you all =)


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Weird Thinspo Request

So I am finally free from work training. I ended up weighing myself afterwards and to my surprise I hadn't gained any weight. I haven't lost any either but I feel my body is now getting used to the 120-121 range which is awesome. I feel great but I can't wait to reach 117 so I can shop! I want to shop before school starts so that would mean I have less than 2 weeks to lose the weight which I think I can.

I will be at the gym tomorrow! I can't weight. I am thinking of starting off by trying to lose 500 cals on the machines and then do some running. I have not one but two super healthy exercise freak friends (one who has lost a lot of weight) and so we are practically making sure each other works out. I feel so lucky to be surrounded by them.

Also I have a weird thinspo request to make only because I suck at finding thinspo. I was wondering you lovely ladies could find me thinspo of skinny women in business suits. I am in need of a suit lol and want to see how great they could look for my skinnier self =) Much love to all and now I have finally have time to stay updated with blogs.



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Please Update me on you

So I have some time to write up a quick blog. I have been busy all day! I am exhausted and I still have along day tomorrow with training and stuff. So just to update I hate how I haven't been reading blogs. PLEASE UPDATE me in my comments. I will have some time tonight but I always feel overwhelmed when I fall behind in blogs. I hope you all are doing well <3

As for myself I have never felt so envious. There is this lovely lovely ana girl who works with me. She is absolutely gorgeous. She obviously lost a ton of weight this summer and everytime we have like lunch and breakfast and stuff (because work is all day and so long they feed us) I sneakily look at her and she eats nothing! I feel like a creep lol but I could see her whole spine through her shirt when she leaned over just a little! I actually think she is too skinny but goodness she is so pretty. She's asian and looks like a freaking model and has the skinniest legs ever. She is pretty skinny not ugly skinny even though she does look too skinny. Anyway she is my new thinspo. The gym opens in a few days!!! I will be there all day. I don't even care anymore, I want to lose weight so bad now. All I need to do is start reading your blogs and progress and looking at more thinspo.

Its just so hard to not eat when you are forced in such a social situation as I am right now. When school starts hopefully I'll be less around them during meal times. But I have great news!!! So one of my roommates (who weighs a lot more than me) has just changed her whole entire lifestyle around. I'd say she was pro ana now lol but she is actually pro health and instead of restricting eats like 6 small meals a day with tons of exercise. The good part is she eats absolutely no junk food now and will be working out everyday. I am super excited because all I have to do is copy her choices in food (its all extremely healthy and low cal now) and work out with her. Plus I love restricting so I just can't wait to reach 115. Once I hit 117 I am going on a shopping spree for new clothes. Wish me luck guys and please update me!!! I will be reading blogs later tonight. I am hanging out with some friends and going to the movies and will read when I get back. Love you all <3


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Still Busy

I want to thankyou all for your advice. I pretty much agree with you guys, he isn't good for my health. But then I feel addicted sometimes because he can just be amazing sometimes. But I will be trying to see him less and less and move on and start dating and whatnot.

So I have been really busy and I feel guilty for not commenting on many blogs. It gets overwhelming sometimes. I am still unpacking and omg so some coworkers and friends came back to school and I swear so many are pro ana! They look pretty much anorexic and I was jealous =( I want to lose weight so bad now and this week of moving and training and friends will not be helping with that. To make myself feel better I just keep reminding myself that once school starts and the gym opens it will be easier to eat less and workout more.

I am getting a little paranoid. One friend commented on how little I ate and it made me nervous when responding. Luckily(even though I am a little envious) an already skinny friend of mine got skinnier this summer and my other friend who would have normally commented on me couldn't stop talking about how skinny she had gotten. She did get skinnier but I personally think she looks better and isn't ana or mia or anything. She is highly athletic. Any I am rambling. I will be reading some blogs tonight then will be busy for the next few days. Much love to you all <3


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I Hate Moving

Moving was just awful. The only good part was its finished and I actually had an awesome time with my friend she is hilarious.

But on to the bad parts because I need to complain. First off I am an idiot for trying to fast lol. The first moment I even tried to move I almost passed out and felt like I was going to throw up. Luckily my friend suggested it was dehyration and watered me up and fed me. It probably was but obviously because my body was starving. It was awful because at first I felt dizzy then naceous but the feeling went away and the second time it came back all I wanted to do was stuff my face to never feel that way again. I'm personally not a fan of dizzyness and nacea but I should have expected it. What sucks is that I had no appetite but I ate some fast food today twice. I dont even want to count calories. All I know is I moved a ton today for hours. I am physically exhausted, just felt like I needed to update.

Oh and that friend I got into a fight with a few days ago and who I kind of liked. Sometimes I wish he'd just leave my life. I think he causes more harm than good. Sometimes I just don't like who I am when I am around him and what hurts the most is I am who I am all the time and I love me all the time...so what does that mean? Could I be better? Or am I the best I can be and he just destroys that without trying or even being malicious. Does that make me weak or a fool?

I'm seriously going to be very busy this week so I apologize now if I seem to disappear. I will be trying to read many blogs =)


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Love you all

Thankyou guys for all the lovely comments!! It really meant a lot to me. I took them down and deleted them before the taller, prettier one could see them so sorry =(. Next time I post pics I'll wait for you to see and also I will post some full body shots. Like I knew I would, had to hang out with friends today and eat fast food omg. I did resist getting fries and soda but ofcourse I caved in for icecream =(. Calories as of now. Its night time and the junk food has made me craving more food. Luckily I only have fruit and healthy snacks to binge on so maybe I won't go over 1200.

Icecream: 330
chicken nuggets: 460
grapes: 100
orange juice: 120

Total: 1010

Tomorrow is moving day and we are probably going to go out to eat so I will try and fast all day while moving and burning calories =). This week ugh, will be food galore since I will be moving with roommates but then next week the gym opens so can't wait for that. I have many blogs to catch up on, I've been packing but I will soon. ^^ Love you all


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Pics of Me

So after a few people comment I will take them down. I honestly do not know why I am so paranoid, my blog is like in the oblivion of the net but I am =/. And I feel lame sometimes but meh. I know you guys want to see ^^. I do want to remain anonymous so edited the pics for that reason.

Pics removed. Thanks for the comments guys =)





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Chyeah

I have never been in fast mode this long. Keep in mind I haven't been completely fasting but I have been having max 800 calories a day for maybe 4 days now. Some days only 300. Today I had starbursts (lol love them) a few chips, a soda, and some popcorn chicken. I was with a friend today so thats why I had all the junk food. I need to stp eating starbursts though, too many calories. This was my last day eating them!

Chicken 300
Starbusts 240
Soda 160
Chips 100

So total would be 800 in the last 24 hours. Its easy since I don't eat while working and I work 10 hour shifts and then I sleep for another 8 hours. I start packing tomorrow so I will slowly get out of fast mode this week. I will be moving and hanging out with a ton of friends. So not only will I not be fasting I will just expect to gain a pound or two but then after that I will be in the gym!!!

Oh and dot has totally inspired me to take pics!! Expect those next post. I have an awful camera and mirror lol so its really hard to take good ones but I will try

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Flushed
Because of your comment I went to the store and bought a ton of fruits =D And I can't wait to see your progress once school starts

CA
Thanks for commenting. I do read your blog just need to comment more ;) I adore subway, did decide to go and it was delicious! Filled me up for all day saturday

xthinforever
You are so amazing I don't like you feeling angry or sad. Keep it up sweety <3

Dot
Thankyou!! I feel more inspired to post pics, I just get really picky when I take a picture and end up not liking it. Not because of me just because my camera sucks. Keep up your awesome work and goodluck with the abc!


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A New Day

SO I am happily still in fast mode. Only ate a slice of bread and peanut butter as well as some starbursts in the last 24 hours. I even avoided eating fast food last night and going out to eat with friends today. One, I don't want to ruin everything with one horrible meal at a restaurant and two, I am tired of wasting money to just fatten myself up lol. I woke up today still in fast mode! I think I am just running of adrenaline. So advice time, what should I eat? I'm thinking subway, I always get a wheat 6inch turkey. Any suggestions? I will be chilling out today, may eat an apple and another slice of bread with peanut butter but I know I need to eat a meal.

It helps that I live alone (as for now, moving next week with roommates) so I barely keep food around me and am working so that just keeps me busy. Then I sleep a lot. When school starts hopefully I have an internship and can avoid dinner time with friends lol. Not everyday, just don't want to stuff myself daily. I have free time today so I will catch up on some blogs and see how you guys are doing=)

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the taller, prettier one
I remember replying on your blog. Glad I could be an inspiration you are mine as well =)

Fleur
Thankyou love =) I hope you keep it up as well

swt mzry
Thankyou! I can't wait to start working out then I can use the high tech awesome scales they have in the gym lol. Will keep me motivated to work out if I weigh myself before I do xD

Dot
Aww thankyou Dot =D I honestly fail at taking pics of myself but I will try lol. And yes I like to be honest and I did not lie, HUGE difference. You look fabulous.

pokerface
You are just doing amazing. Guys tend to lose fast like that :P. Keep up the awesome work. Everyone knows you can do it, go and look hot!

Flushed
Thats ok flushed, not gaining is still a good goal. I am afraid of gaining right now lol so I need to try and boost my metabolism. Thankyou for your support ^^

lizzy
Thankyou lizzy =) An internship is just for job experience. It looks awesome on a resume basically and is good for networking

Savory Sweet
lol I am not taking anything. I do have an addiction to sugar. I like candy too much. I love peanut butter too so I just add that to my diet for healthy fats. If I don't go overboard with it, which I dont, its healthy and keeps me energized

xthinforever
I am so so sorry. I hope you find out soon and then can really decide where you are in life. Feel better, we are all here for you


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All time low!!

So had a busy night and day. I am so behind on blogs, I've been trying to get an internship so I've been too busy to even sleep. Good news is that I am in serious fast mode, it feels awesome. I feel like I have tons of energy even with eating little. And when I do feel tired one apple boosts me up. I weighed myself today....and I hit 121!!! I have never been this low in my adult body life. It feels great. My all time goals has always been 120 and I am so close. The hard part will be getting to 115 and staying in that range. I feel though if I can hit 121 without workout then getting to 115-117 with workout will be a piece of cake.

I owe it all to you guys. Thankyou so much for the support. I will be trying to eat some healthy fruits today and stay hydrated and keep it up. I might head to subway today seeing how I feel later tonight. I am so behind in blogs, I apologize. I would love for you guys to give me a quick update on how your weight goals are going in the comments.

I adore all of you <3


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Waking up full

So I woke up and read your comments and I feel great =). I woke up feeling physically great and mentally. I unfortunately have a busy day today and can't read your blogs until later tonight. I really just want to thank you guys for lifting my moods. I hate being down, I like to be cheery =o

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Ana's Girl
Thankyou so much =) I love working at night because I find it easier to not eat. I reaally appreciate your comments

pokerface
You are absolutely right and thats not like me. I won't do it again ^^. I woke up feeling better and in control. I am so happy you have multivitamins ;) I will purchase some soon.

xthinforever
Thankyou sweety <3 I did wake up feeling awesome. He is a lovely friend and yes I am incredible comfortable around him and sometimes there is tension between us. But yeh, nothing will come from it, it just couldn't work. I've accepted that lol it just sucks I can't stop feeling for him.

swt mzry
Thanks love and you are right as well. I was just upset about the argument but I'm all better now. Thanks for commenting too ^^

stranger
Yes stranger its such a relief living on my own, no one looking over my shoulders. I have a weird sleeping schedule and eating schedule as well. goodluck holding out until you can get back to school ^^ Thanks for commenting

Dot
Thankyou Dot <3 Stupid guys and their guyness that we love lol.


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Emptiness

So I got into a weird argument with a close friend of mine. A friend I sometimes love and I sometimes hate. Or maybe I hate that I love him or wish I hated him more. I over complicate things and sometimes I am angry he isn't who I want him to be all the time. Yet there are times when he is everything and more. I've concluded that there will never be anything more than friendship between us. I just wish I could stop thinking about him in other ways.

Afterwards I worked all night and didn't eat. I type this now about to get off soon. My head is pounding. My stomach hurts so much I want to throw up to stop the feeling. To just stop feeling. There wouldn't be anything to throw up anyway. I feel too down to eat. Its like a form of punishment, this pain I am feeling. I'm not a masochist. I don't like feeling pain. But I do feel guilty for something...I just don't know what. I will shower and then sleep for 8 hours. I won't eat anything. I feel empty, void of everything. I wonder how I will feel when I wake up. Normally when I fall asleep on an empty stomach I wake up feeling full.


I have a feeling I will wake up empty.



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Feeling Discouraged

Wow. So I went to a bagel place for breakfast and just looked up the calories...820!!! For breakfast!! Thats just ridiculous, never eating there again. In my defense I had planned to eat there yesterday so I ate very little for dinner but I feel just so discouraged because it didn't even fill me up. So I'm just going to eat regularly today, and fast tomorrow. I still have to wait a couple of weeks before I can go to the gym. I am growing so impatient and discouraged. Fasting is just hard when I can't weigh myself. I hope you guys are having better luck than me =)

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xthinforever
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with all the blogs and feel guilty when I don't comment on all of them. I do try to though because I know how reassuring and happy comments make me feel =)

Ana's girl
Yeh I love competition. I find it helpful because I'm not a particularly jealous person as hard as that is to believe. So it is just pure competition but I never become mean or jealous.

Kevin
Thanks for commenting, I haven't had a chance to really read your blog, partly because I feel guilty sometimes. I like to write as well and feel guilty having this blog complaining about my weight sometimes instead of writing like you do. Weight and body image is less of an issue for me yet I feel like I make it an issue sometimes with this blog...does that all make sense lol?

lizzy
Losing used to make me feel horrible as well. Everytime I lost my first game in any sport I would cry. That stinks how you feel awkward around her. Maybe its time you moved on? I have this horrible habit of moving on in friendships easily =(

pokerface
Thankyou so much for that compliment wow lol. She is giving me hints. She refuses to say that I am skinnier than her. She just talks about the weight she's gained. I feel she is resentful towards me but that only keeps me motivated =) I have a feeling you will be looking great in photos in no time. I never took photos when I felt I was heavier, now I am a camera whore lol

Dot
I'm actually happy you have someone to compete with, makes the journey all that more attainable. I wish you the best girl <3 So happy you are back ^^


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Need to Feel Empty

So I am back at school feeling bloated like I always do after a trip home. I frankly eat too much at home and it makes me feel sick. So wow I have a lot of followers! And I am so behind in blogs. I need to read all my new followers and my updates and comment on everyone's blog. I have a lot of work to do lol. So my friend I am competing with in my mind just called me saying how much she can't wait to work out when school starts. Thats good, I'm a very competitive person and feel I will do great if my goal is to remain skinnier than her lol. I know its awful but I live off competition.

I'm going to copy xthinforever and start answering comments on the following blog. I get lost as well trying to answer everyone on their blog. So here goes

Ana's Girl
I am actually on a sports team, but its only intramural so less competitive and less practice. It just doesn't help when it comes to my weight goals. If I want to lose weight I need to live at the gym but I think I can do it =) And you will always have my support, I don't know why but I just feel so bad when you feel bad, your blog is that powerful

lizzy
Thankyou so much for the comment. I must confess I need to catch up on your blog and start commenting I will asap ^^

Sunny Mc.FatFace
I have a weird layout so in order to follow my blog you need to manually add me by going to your dashboard and where it shows everyone you are following at the bottom click add and paste the link of my blog in it. Hope that helps and I need to catch up on your blog as well ^^

pokerface
I absolutely adore your blog. And for me playing sports is just my lazy version of working out. Yes it helps but the gym is much better to define your body. Plus playing sports increases my appetite like crazy. After soccer practice and running for miles I would get home and stuff my mouth. Can't wait for your photo debut! Lol

xthinforever
Everytime I did go to the gym I would just play racquetball or badminton or some other sport. I would avoid machines at all cost but thats where the real workout is plus they tell you how many calories you burn =D


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Update

So good news! Minus me having to eat regular meals of course. My mom did not mention my weight once! It felt awesome. Granted she was gone half the day. But for breakfast I had a cheese omelet. I left the pot in the sink and my dishes around so when she got home she saw it. I then ate a horribly fattening muffin and snacked on grapes all day. For dinner...ugh...had a lot of pasta. Don't want to talk about it and also had chocolate and juice. I made sure that when I ate I always ate in front of her and even suggested dinner and went shopping with her for ingredients.

I feel I convinced her to not worry about my weight. To begin with, I was giving her health food advice (which I find ironic since I would rather starve than eat healthy but I am knowledgeable) I convinced her to start eating raw spinach, its a personal favorite of mine. We went shopping together and practically talked about healthy foods the whole time so she knows I am a "health nut" now. Which is technically true. When I eat I like to eat healthy.

I want to work out so bad. I'm scared that I will lose my drive once I am able to go to the gym. I'm a very athletic person, I have always been on a sports team. But when it comes to the gym I just feel so meh about it. I am hoping that once I start weighing myself and really dieting, the numbers on the scale will really motivate me to go to the gym. I have some running shoes, getting an ipod and I have goals in mind. I want to hit 117 before winter break. Thats it, then I'm done and just need to maintain that weight and tone my body. I also want to be able to run 30 mins straight without stopping and do that maybe 4 times a week. I want to have lean muscle and a toned body yet look fragile and lovely in skinny jeans and a bikini. Wish me luck girls and keep up your blogs they really keep me motivated more than you guys realize

Zoe Saldana. I think she is gorgeous with a rocking body



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What to do

So I met with a friend this morning and avoided lunch! It felt great so decline and not eat some fast food. I've been eating minimal these past few days and I feel like I've conquered my bloatedness. I feel at my all time low right now but that will change, I'm going home for a few days so that means eating a lot.

My mom is constantly remarking on my weight, its getting a little irritating. I don't even have weird eating habits around her, I eat perfectly normal. Granted last summer I was home I never ate so maybe she still remembers that time. It kinda stinks that she's seen me at a higher weight. None of my friends ever comment on my weight or eating habits because thats all they've known. But family knows different, I used to be bigger and wear a size 9. Now I wear a size 5 and my mom has definitely noticed. One time she was eyeing the size of this skirt I had and remarked on how I used to wear larger sizes. I've told her that I became more health conscious and just work out more. I really need advice to convince her to get off my back and stop commenting on my weight. I already eat normal around her, probably even more than I should. What else could I do?


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